Hey dude....
First, I'd recommend a therapist. That sounds like something that ought to be treated with some seriousness.
Second, I personally find it an absolutely liberating experience. I could probably make it a tl;dr sort of post, but the short answer is that reality - harsh, beautiful, austere, uncompromising, unaccommodating but also interconnected, brings me to tears of wonder and joy in a way that religion and faith never did. Somehow to me everything is more amazing and more worth my curiosity when I consider that a divine being had no hand in it.
Dawkins does it a bit, but really it's Neil deGrasse Tyson and Carl Sagan who taught me not to fear that overwhelming blanket of the coldness of reality. And perhaps Walt Whitman, who had a rather mixed bag of spiritual notions but whose view of the universe is staggeringly close to what both of those men describe. "A Song of Myself" was one of the things that made me lose my faith in a personal god.
May I ask why you feel like blowing your head off?
First, I'd recommend a therapist. That sounds like something that ought to be treated with some seriousness.
Second, I personally find it an absolutely liberating experience. I could probably make it a tl;dr sort of post, but the short answer is that reality - harsh, beautiful, austere, uncompromising, unaccommodating but also interconnected, brings me to tears of wonder and joy in a way that religion and faith never did. Somehow to me everything is more amazing and more worth my curiosity when I consider that a divine being had no hand in it.
Dawkins does it a bit, but really it's Neil deGrasse Tyson and Carl Sagan who taught me not to fear that overwhelming blanket of the coldness of reality. And perhaps Walt Whitman, who had a rather mixed bag of spiritual notions but whose view of the universe is staggeringly close to what both of those men describe. "A Song of Myself" was one of the things that made me lose my faith in a personal god.
May I ask why you feel like blowing your head off?
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