Is atheism a liberating and good experience?

[Annik]

My dear, you can find those sources of self-esteem elsewhere.

Where?

Well, one of the main reasons religion is a good device is that it provides you with a support group, stress-management and it relieves tension about life's "big questions". There are other types of support groups, other ways to manage stress and the tension relief... That's up to you. However, if you're feeling this bad, I honestly suggest you get in touch with someone who can help you at a more professional capcity.