Is atheism a liberating and good experience?

[Kirbmarc]

If I have free will it is because my determined environment has enabled me to believe in it, which is just as much of a delusion as believing in god is.

True. But the trick is that the effects are so complicated (and chaotic) than no one can ever predict what you are going to do. Not even you. So who cares if you are determined by the environment? You're going to be surprised by what you do anyway.

And by the way, if you want to get technical even your sense of self is an illusion. We are amazing chaotic bundles of memories and experiences. We just ignore most of the deviation from what we expect of us and remember what we have done, thought, experienced and felt before.

So not only the universe isn't made for us, we ourselves aren't made for us. We are what we do, think, experience and feel. Nothing less, nothing more. So complaining about what you feel is pretty useless, unless it's a rant to make you feel better.

Shaking your fists at the universe and curse it for being meaningless won't solve your problems. Unless you feel satisfied by doing so.