Religion and LGBT people

[John V]

Hm. I'm a woman. Perhaps you need a woman's view here.
What exactly, are you trying to say with your purported study?

Because from personal experience I can tell you that I was bi my entire life,
but only admitted to it in adulthood. Admitted it to myself, in adulthood. I have
yet to admit it to anyone besides myself and one other person, for good reason.
All of my families' and friends' suspicions would be confirmed and I simply don't want
to deal with that right now. I'm still ashamed of it, for some unknown reason. Mainly
because I don't want the girls I've hung out with my entire life, to think I was tricking
them somehow, because I'm not going to lie: I did enjoy the benefit of getting to see them
naked just because I was a girl.

I would call myself as being in denial. I knew I was bi deep down, but to hell if I
would admit that! Not only are we the procreating gender of the species, we're all
emotions. It's through sheer will that I denied myself indulgence of women,
but no matter how hard I tried or how wrong I thought it was (I was Christian!), I
would still kick myself every time I found myself looking at a girl more than a girl should.
I couldn't help it, it wasn't a choice. If it was a choice, then perhaps you could explain
to me how I had attraction to girls even before I knew what gay was? When I was a child
I literally had girlfriends. Come to find out in adulthood, they were bi too. But when we were
little we were Christian raised, and I honestly did not know what gay was until I was about 10yrs old.
Just because I didn't know what it was, doesn't denigrate the feelings or attractions that I had back then. It wasn't until I was 17yrs old that I found out what Bi was.
Yes, I did live in a bubble, before you ask. I was homeschooled, went to Christian private schools, etc.

Once I finally figured out what I was, I didn't admit it for another 12yrs. Twelve years!
Come to think of it, my boyfriend at the Christian school: I always thought he was gay. He was my best friend, and knew more about clothes than me. Turns out he was gay. Poor guy had to deal with having a girlfriend just to dispel this horrible stigma at a Christian run school. I didn't mind much that he never kissed me, because I was more interested in the girls! It was just the way things had to be, so I could fit in with my environment.

In conclusion, Mister John V, I think you need to re-examine your conclusions on the subject, not the other way around.

As noted, the longitudinal study of women I presented found that, over ten years, 2/3 changed their self-identity, and half of those changed more than once. That means 1/3 didn't change. You would apparently be in the latter 1/3. So, what's your point?

ETA: Why do you refer to yourself as bi, when you only mention attraction to women, and were glad that your boyfriend didn't kiss you?