Pedophilia; I can't accept it.

[Gilgamesh]

At the time I liked that, it made me feel special. But now, I feel physically sick at the thought of those older men. They took advantage of me and I didn't even realise it till they were long gone.

So you liked it at the time but if given the chance, would now ruin their lives? Why? Because you get all emotional at the thought of what you did - not because it was necessarily bad (you liked it), but rather because it's not seen as something socially acceptable. lel.

The definition of advantage is to 'gain', really. You gained pleasure from the experience, too. You took advantage of those older men. Fucking sicko!