RE: Atheists believe in themselves?
September 2, 2013 at 1:08 am
(This post was last modified: September 2, 2013 at 1:27 am by Mystic.)
I know it's dangerous. Every false idea can consume me. Every irrational perception. And the more will power intensifies, it's easy to let go of focus. Right now I am learning primarily to learn to remain focused while increasing will power. Also remaining calm at all cost.
The danger is not simply that I will lost control, but if I don't learn to rationalize properly, even if I don't lost control, I might reach a deep end of delusion.
But I can't live the alternative, when I feel totally blind, subdued, unable to create direction and motive, unable to go forward any step. The most I can go with the medications is probably getting a job and being productive in that sense.
The difference is you guys believe there is no soul. I believe there is a soul and it can learn to wield the chaotic brain, the absurd, the contradictions, the motives, the double standards, the false delusions, the perceptions that are not based on reality, and bring it to reason. I also am learning I can teach myself to remain calm when I become distressed, overcome with courage when I become fearful of falling into disarray, and the despair I can't bring my brain back to order with hope that I can do that and much more.
I am learning to block all emotions sometimes just to remain focused. I am learning to wield this chaotic mind, it's very hard right now, but I will beat the beast.
It's been 2 weeks I been going through psychosis. My doctor knows.
Also meds don't make you sane. All they do is make you mimic in your own perception of normal people. We can play a sport and we think we are feeling similar experience to normal people but we aren't. You aren't normal and you don't experience life like normal people.
Our path is suppose to be different. But if we are taught there is no purpose to this, there is no way out of it, there is no way to heal and bring our mind to reason, and everyone we meet, everyone who cares about us, and the main academic/medical authority in the country does that, then of course we will never heal, even if it was possible to.
My path in life is very hard. First, doing this for myself, I can't do it. But I realize if I want to help the world significantly, I can't remain on the meds. Still, I wanted to write that book with logical errors in Quran, but I've decided, not until I show a better path and code and law then Islam's, I will not plunge a society into chaos and break their foundation. I need to find a better way. I need to understand various sciences, the controversy etc, in them, and I need to do it objectively, and show argumetns and counter arguments.
I can never imagine myself living a life of "happiness" and ignoring the problems of the world and not trying to bring a solution. I do this because I want to do all I can for the world. I want to do everything I can for everyone I can help.
The danger is not simply that I will lost control, but if I don't learn to rationalize properly, even if I don't lost control, I might reach a deep end of delusion.
But I can't live the alternative, when I feel totally blind, subdued, unable to create direction and motive, unable to go forward any step. The most I can go with the medications is probably getting a job and being productive in that sense.
The difference is you guys believe there is no soul. I believe there is a soul and it can learn to wield the chaotic brain, the absurd, the contradictions, the motives, the double standards, the false delusions, the perceptions that are not based on reality, and bring it to reason. I also am learning I can teach myself to remain calm when I become distressed, overcome with courage when I become fearful of falling into disarray, and the despair I can't bring my brain back to order with hope that I can do that and much more.
I am learning to block all emotions sometimes just to remain focused. I am learning to wield this chaotic mind, it's very hard right now, but I will beat the beast.
It's been 2 weeks I been going through psychosis. My doctor knows.
Also meds don't make you sane. All they do is make you mimic in your own perception of normal people. We can play a sport and we think we are feeling similar experience to normal people but we aren't. You aren't normal and you don't experience life like normal people.
Our path is suppose to be different. But if we are taught there is no purpose to this, there is no way out of it, there is no way to heal and bring our mind to reason, and everyone we meet, everyone who cares about us, and the main academic/medical authority in the country does that, then of course we will never heal, even if it was possible to.
My path in life is very hard. First, doing this for myself, I can't do it. But I realize if I want to help the world significantly, I can't remain on the meds. Still, I wanted to write that book with logical errors in Quran, but I've decided, not until I show a better path and code and law then Islam's, I will not plunge a society into chaos and break their foundation. I need to find a better way. I need to understand various sciences, the controversy etc, in them, and I need to do it objectively, and show argumetns and counter arguments.
I can never imagine myself living a life of "happiness" and ignoring the problems of the world and not trying to bring a solution. I do this because I want to do all I can for the world. I want to do everything I can for everyone I can help.
