For me it was a painful process, being the samurai type loyalty I displayed it nearly marked as betrayal. To me to serve for much of my teenage life away as a christian only to find out it was wasted. It felt at first like I was abandoned, but then it settled into realization that there was no one watching over me at all. It over all made sense however a void was left in my life for over a year. It was not until I met my atheist girlfriend whom helped me break that mindset. However I can agree with Tonus, I was technically an agnostic (deistic leanings) long before i finally deconverted.
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I would be a televangelist....but I have too much of a soul.
