(November 29, 2013 at 3:48 pm)freedomfromfallacy Wrote: If you are seriously considering suicide, then you should go to an emergency room or call 911 immediately. There are also 24/7 resources for conversation if you are in need, or have a crisis situation (do a Google search). On a more direct note... It sounds like you give others the power to create and destroy your sense of happiness. You, are the source of your own emotions - not others. The only time when others have such power over you is when you have willingly surrendered it to them. There is no shame in asking for help - if you need it, you should seek it out.
Well apparently they do manage to affect me somehow. For instance there was an activity. And I was happy doing it. And I was like "Ok I can do this for the rest of my life". Then 2 christians came along and kept telling me that what I did is pointless and stupid. I lost the desire do to that activity and feel like it's all pointless. I have bad things happening to me for a long time and this activity was my hope. Like a flower growing. And people are stepping on it. And I fucking hate it. But yeah lives are fragile. So easy to destroy. Not just my life but others. I really don't like this. It's the cause and effect that I hate.
Also I feel alone because everybody around me is christian who thinks I'm going to hell. I really don't like that either. Tired of that kind of shit. Why can't all those people just die.
Besides if I do take my life there will be one less atheist in the world. Christians sort of win a little bit and it will be harder for the new atheists cause there will be less of them and more of Christians. Tough world lol.
But there are other things which ruin my life. Small things but they will not go away. That's what I hate to. There are many things that can't be changed once they do happen.
But I am confused now. I lost all the things I liked. What made me happy does not make me happy anymore. I feel like those people did kill me with their words and actions.
There are many other things I want to say but I will not. Maybe in private.
