Feeling like dying

[feeling]

And no I did the activity because I liked doing the activity and found meaning in it. But others convinced me that it's pointless.

The flower is expression of what gives me meaning and happiness. And how it gets obliterated.
In that case it was that activity.

Perhaps you can find another activity that brings you joy and meaning, and a peer group that will be supportive.

That's what I thought before. But it seems impossible now. It's hard to explain this thought but it's there. I think I think too much about what people say. You can call me weak for that maybe.

Not to mention there are some other things which get in my way. There are few people in this world who sort of make it impossible for me to be where I want to be. I can explain but I'd rather not.