Lamenter.So essentially your issue is "Not only HOW the universe began, but WHY it began and continues to exist"?
Firstly, have you perused the numerous threads on this forum with those questions? I say this because it might give you a starting point. Check out the sciences forums and don't pass up the philosophy forums.
For me, these are very interesting forums and while I will need to think about your questions I am hoping you will find some answers
"The Universe is run by the complex interweaving of three elements: energy, matter, and enlightened self-interest." G'Kar-B5
