Ever Feel Guilty?

[Bad Writer]

I don't actively TRY to "deconvert" people, but might be doing it anyway. My thing is I sometimes feel like I'm pulling people from their ignorant bliss. And I usually feel a little bad about it. Like...it's hard to describe. I'm glad they're finally thinking for themselves, but sad because I'm kind of forcing them to doubt what they've held to be true their whole lives. I went through it, and I know it can be rough.

I'm having this kind of feeling right now with my mormon penpal. There is one caveat that makes me feel a whole lot better about the situation and that is that she was the one that wanted to talk about religion so I don't feel all that bad about making her question her beliefs. That's actually a good thing, IMO.

The part that I feel bad about is that if I do end up causing her to question her beliefs to the point where she goes to her bishop or stake president or something asking questions and is seen as a dissenter, there is the possibility that she could be kicked out of her ward and loose her social and support structure - let alone whether our conversation ends up with her leaving the LDS church all together.

It's a strange situation to be caught in.

She probably won't get disfellowshipped or kicked out unless she begins acting against/teaching contrary to the doctrines of her Church. From what I gather in our conversations she seems pretty quiet at church, so that might actually be a good thing for her.

I've stopped actively trying to talk to my family members about the issues of religion; I just always remind them that if they bring up anything pertaining to their church when speaking to me, then the topic is fair game.