It did get easier for me, when I finally came to term with being an atheist. However, the last half year being a Christian/pantheist, I thought a lot about it, so I didn't have to do it after losing my faith. When you come to the realization that nothing in your life has really changed while not beliving in a deity, how ridiculous the concept of hell is and how utterly full of shit the "holy" scriptures are, that's the day you don't fret about gods anymore. Unfortunately this realization has to come from within, but have patience, with your excellent attitude, I'm sure that you will reach the point 
When I was young, there was a god with infinite power protecting me. Is there anyone else who felt that way? And was sure about it? but the first time I fell in love, I was thrown down - or maybe I broke free - and I bade farewell to God and became human. Now I don't have God's protection, and I walk on the ground without wings, but I don't regret this hardship. I want to live as a person. -Arina Tanemura
