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[Angrboda]

The problem when high, manic, or delusional the behavior makes sense and seems rational and you just assume others know where you are coming from or have the same sense of humor.

I've been having manic episodes off and on for 25 years and I didn't find out until this last episode that I have pressured speech when I'm manic. I suppose I could have guessed, but much of the behavior is invisible to you when you're manic. Judgement about so many things is just right out the window when you're manic. Until I found out about the pressured speech, I thought that I likely appeared fairly normal when manic. "Whoosh!" I was totally clueless! Knowing that I can be rather mouthy when normal, I feel sorry for the people who have had to deal with me when manic. When I get manic, I become hostile and aggressive. Reflecting on it, I'm sure that, too, looks worse from the outside. If I notice my hostility from the inside while manic, I must appear a right bitch to people looking at it from the outside.