A Serious Question For Theists

[GrandizerII]

And you shall know that I'm so convinced with faith and religion .. and what you say about faith and believers doesn't really effect me

You may think this is admirable, but an unshakable faith only tells me that you are not open to correction in case you are wrong.

Think of it this way. If you are wrong, how can you tell you are wrong?

In answer to your question concerning what makes me an atheist and how atheism has affected my life, it's simply the fact that there are no observable/testable evidence for the existence of any God, and that the only evidence theists seem to have to offer are in the form of either philosophical arguments that really just amount to word play or subjective experiences that could easily be psychological/emotional experiences.

As to what I get out of being an atheist, it's mainly that I get to live my life the way I see fit without being unwarrantably restricted by certain dogma for which the evidence pointing to its validity is lacking.

I'm also a better person as an atheist than I was as a religious person. For one, I am much more empathetic/understanding towards others (especially homosexuals, transgendered, and women) than I was before. I also don't feel I have a reason to feel superior to anyone anymore. And I have become a much honest person than ever before. When I was religious, I was continually enabled by the fellow religious to be intellectually dishonest and not give heed to the validity of alternate ideas and truths no matter the evidence pointing to them. Nowadays, if you show me real evidence that contradicts what I currently believe on any topic, I am much more open to it and will accommodate my belief accordingly (if not immediately, then gradually and eventually in a relatively short period of time).

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I forgot to add that I'm sorry you lost two babies. Must have been some painful experiences for you.