Maybe it's because I'm so new to my stance as an atheist, but I do struggle sometimes with the theist 'leftovers'. It was an integral part of my psyche for decades, so it can't just be dismissed or wiped away like a stain.
But I recognize that, and make allowances for it, not being so hard on myself for slipping a bit now and then. Mostly, rather than the specific judeo-christian deity I was hammered with almost from birth, I catch myself slipping towards generalized deism, with some undefined spiritual ether out there. I remind myself that it's RESIDUE. Nowhere in any of my reading, searching, investigation of various belief systems did I find any that described what I was thinking was truth in the past. I think the closest any ever came was pantheism, but I could cancel that within a paragraph of reading every time.
But I recognize that, and make allowances for it, not being so hard on myself for slipping a bit now and then. Mostly, rather than the specific judeo-christian deity I was hammered with almost from birth, I catch myself slipping towards generalized deism, with some undefined spiritual ether out there. I remind myself that it's RESIDUE. Nowhere in any of my reading, searching, investigation of various belief systems did I find any that described what I was thinking was truth in the past. I think the closest any ever came was pantheism, but I could cancel that within a paragraph of reading every time.
"I THINK, therefore I am DANGEROUS..."
