does death scare you and why?

[Mudhammam]

Define existential crisis. There can be so many kinds and some I've experienced personally.

Realization of your own mortality.

Yeah, for sure. That realization shook me to my core. Every now and again, especially if I'm stoned, I'll -feel- death in my bones; I will become absorbed in the thought that not only is being i.e. everything, the "I am", essentially clinging onto itself by a thread, it also all but amounts to an obscure nothing; every moment is a continual loss as much as it is a thirst for more, a struggle for sustenance, that cannot be quenched. In that ever strange and dark place is the closest I come to understanding the rationale of irrationality, that is, the leap called faith, though my intellectual conscience prefers the joy and redemption found in the suffering rather than the vain comfort of self-deception.