Conflicted, Life Has No Inherent Meaning But I Want to Adopt One

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I'm just saying that it's almost like the cosmos is trying to tell you something amigo.

You could go on a quest for blow...to give to a hooker- so you can ask her what to put in your empty box. You might find happiness along the way....that's how it happens in the stories. Gotta be worth something, right?
(anyone else see a quality Wizard of Oz sequel here...I know I do)

-Humor, btw, Connect, humor, good cheer, laughs. That's my suggestion. It's not a cause or a calling or a meaning for life, but at least it's something to do until you figure out the latter....and if you never manage to find the latter, that's okay - you'll always have those good laughs. Beats the shit out of moping or dwelling on misery, anyway.

Basically, I'm telling you to lighten the fuck up, joe.

Thank you. I really, really appreciate it. You're right, I think humor, cheers, and good laughs is a great way to kind of detach from my terrible perceptions.

Come to think of it, I used to be a lot like that when I was under religious delusion. I hated being mormon, but I thought it to be correct, and so to counter my cognitive dissonance I spent a good time making stupid youtube videos, coming up with funny skits, and trying to make people (and myself) laugh. As much as I want to deny it, I think I am realizing how negatively my religious background effected me and how much I had enabled those dogma's to effect me so much.

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Guns. That's what gives my life meaning. Guns and bullets.

haha. I haven't gone shooting in a long time. haha