I never experienced what you described. I was taught fear though. When I was a little kid, I was mortified at the notion of hell. Even after I starting thinking that Christianity was a load of shit, I worried that something was wrong with me. I thought I didn't understand what other people seemed to easily grasp. What prompted this worry was a fear of burning in hell. The fear of hell is the most powerful grip Christianity has on people, especially for those who begin to question their beliefs.
Related to what you described though, I was led to believe that without god I was inherently bad somehow. I never really feared my own nature or thought about it though. If I had been older then perhaps I would have been able to fully consider that aspect.
Related to what you described though, I was led to believe that without god I was inherently bad somehow. I never really feared my own nature or thought about it though. If I had been older then perhaps I would have been able to fully consider that aspect.
