(December 13, 2014 at 7:42 pm)StealthySkeptic Wrote: Plus, I had a disability, so as I grew up and had social difficulties I constantly questioned why God would make broken like this, and wishing that if I was to go to hell for my sins, he would do it already. So yeah, I know how it feels to hate yourself.
Did they feed you that bullshit of being carried by Jesus or god when you were at your most miserable?
I too was utterly frightened by the fire and brimstone stories being fed. But on me it had the opposite effect. When I was still a child I decided, if god was anything like what the priests made him out to be, I didn't want to have anything to do with him anyway. So, for quite some time I had decided that god wasn't the evil bastard described by the church. Only much later I noticed I didn't believe in him at all.