Confessions: Going to Church for Xmas this Year
December 14, 2014 at 4:04 pm
(This post was last modified: December 14, 2014 at 4:06 pm by *Deidre*.)
There's something that has been unsettling for me, lately. Not sure what it is, or where it's coming from, exactly. Perhaps, we are always on this journey, seeking truth, whatever that may be. We think we have finally found truth, but then the path keeps leading us elsewhere...Idk.
I consider myself an atheist, but not sure why I feel this void inside of me tugging away at my heart.
I've decided to go to church for Xmas Eve service this year, with my dad. He asked me, as he has done these past couple of years since my deconversion, and I've always declined. But, this time, I said yes...and I'm actually looking forward to it. Is it possible that it's merely due to the effects of the season all around me? I didn't feel this way the past couple of years, but for some reason, I do this year. Hoping you don't consider me a weakling, but...there it is. I wanted to be honest with you, my e-family of sorts...who know what it's like to let go of Christianity/religion, and perhaps too, have felt a void you have never quite filled.
Wasn't really sure where to post this, I figured this was a good of a spot as any. I haven't been to church in a VERY long time, so it will be interesting at any rate.
If you have any advice, thoughts, words of hope or encouragement, I'd be interested in hearing.
I consider myself an atheist, but not sure why I feel this void inside of me tugging away at my heart.
I've decided to go to church for Xmas Eve service this year, with my dad. He asked me, as he has done these past couple of years since my deconversion, and I've always declined. But, this time, I said yes...and I'm actually looking forward to it. Is it possible that it's merely due to the effects of the season all around me? I didn't feel this way the past couple of years, but for some reason, I do this year. Hoping you don't consider me a weakling, but...there it is. I wanted to be honest with you, my e-family of sorts...who know what it's like to let go of Christianity/religion, and perhaps too, have felt a void you have never quite filled. Wasn't really sure where to post this, I figured this was a good of a spot as any. I haven't been to church in a VERY long time, so it will be interesting at any rate.
If you have any advice, thoughts, words of hope or encouragement, I'd be interested in hearing.
