I was never a Christian in the first place because Christianity isn't compatible with the most fundamental values I hold. My mom taught me a few things about Jesus, but she also taught me important values that exist regardless of religion. Her teachings ended up making me a non-Christian.
Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you