Your situation reminds me of an extremely weird situation I was once in. I met this girl online and we talked for a while and got on really well. Eventually we met up, several times, and things seemed to be going great. Then all of a sudden she stops answering my messages. Ignored my emails, my texts, everything. We have another date booked to meet up, but I don't know if I'll see her. I sent more messages, and nothing. Eventually all I got was a really weird message, that she would talk to me later that day, but she never did. Time went on and she didn't show up for our meeting, and I never heard from her again. I spent about a month after this going absolutely insane... should I send her just one more message? What happened, did she go off me? Why won't she at least tell me she's OK?
For my own sanity I had to make the decision to make a clean break. I sent her one final message letting her know that I was giving up trying, and I tried to move on. It was hard, but eventually I got my sanity back.
I know your story is a lot more complicated than mine, but I kind of see a similarity in how not being able to get in contact is driving you crazy. So my advice would be to either send a message in the best way you can, or to make a decision to try and forget the idea altogether for your sanity. I wonder, are you chasing a ghost? When we remember the past, we always have a very skewed perspective, and can make ourselves believe it was something entirely different to what it was. Of course you have strong feelings and you had good times with him, I'm not trying to deny that of course. But I'm wondering if your expectations of what would happen if you got in contact are likely to fall short of what would actually happen, and would lead to more heartache. So many times I've tried to return to things in my past in some way, to relive them, and almost every time they are nothing like what I remember, and they even go so far as to destroy the nice memories I had of them. Maybe, as your memories are precious to you at the moment, they should be preserved as they are?
I hope something in there was useful, and that you can decide what is best for you.
For my own sanity I had to make the decision to make a clean break. I sent her one final message letting her know that I was giving up trying, and I tried to move on. It was hard, but eventually I got my sanity back.
I know your story is a lot more complicated than mine, but I kind of see a similarity in how not being able to get in contact is driving you crazy. So my advice would be to either send a message in the best way you can, or to make a decision to try and forget the idea altogether for your sanity. I wonder, are you chasing a ghost? When we remember the past, we always have a very skewed perspective, and can make ourselves believe it was something entirely different to what it was. Of course you have strong feelings and you had good times with him, I'm not trying to deny that of course. But I'm wondering if your expectations of what would happen if you got in contact are likely to fall short of what would actually happen, and would lead to more heartache. So many times I've tried to return to things in my past in some way, to relive them, and almost every time they are nothing like what I remember, and they even go so far as to destroy the nice memories I had of them. Maybe, as your memories are precious to you at the moment, they should be preserved as they are?
I hope something in there was useful, and that you can decide what is best for you.
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