Wow, over two decades for three of you, i haven't heard of many people who've had mental illnesses for longer than me, i'm struggling to come to terms with the thought that I might never be back to 100%. You all say you're managing it, does that mean you're not fully recovered and if so what are you unable to do that you would be if you were? Is your illness a constant pervasive feeling that you've managed to lessen or does it come in episodes that you've managed to decrease the incidence/severity of?
That does sound like depression, especially the not knowing how long you can hold on, i felt that way before I had to drop out of college/having friends. How long has it lasted? I'm assuming you're not capable of deriving much external relief from your unhappiness... if your life (outside of what's going on in your head) was great would you still feel depressed? I'm not sure what the textbook definition of depression is but that's my definition of it
As for treatment being too expensive - that's awful. I'm English so I don't have this problem, there's a good chance i'd be dead if I had to pay for my anti-depressants - this is probably not very reassuring
Quote:I don't know what I have, I just constantly feel a deep existential vacuum and unhappiness. Also, I feel apathy towards most things and it's been getting worse lately. The last time I felt like this was when I was 18 years old, now I'm 21. I can't get help because treatments are expensive and my parents think depression is a scam. I don't know what to do. I try to deal with it. I don't know for how long I can hold on.
That does sound like depression, especially the not knowing how long you can hold on, i felt that way before I had to drop out of college/having friends. How long has it lasted? I'm assuming you're not capable of deriving much external relief from your unhappiness... if your life (outside of what's going on in your head) was great would you still feel depressed? I'm not sure what the textbook definition of depression is but that's my definition of it
As for treatment being too expensive - that's awful. I'm English so I don't have this problem, there's a good chance i'd be dead if I had to pay for my anti-depressants - this is probably not very reassuring
“The larger the group, the more toxic, the more of your beauty as an individual you have to surrender for the sake of group thought. And when you suspend your individual beauty you also give up a lot of your humanity. You will do things in the name of a group that you would never do on your own. Injuring, hurting, killing, drinking are all part of it, because you've lost your identity, because you now owe your allegiance to this thing that's bigger than you are and that controls you.” - George Carlin
