Hello I Must Be Going!

[Kyuuketsuki]

I don't know how long this will stay up? Hopefully the staff (a select group I am no longer a member of) believe in freedom of speech as much as I do, I guess we (or rather you) will see. Hopefully my year long tenure in this forum, my promotion to staff and subsequent poorly handled dismissal gains me the right to vent some kind of strong feeling (I wasn’t told formally that I’d been "retired" though to be fair I may have pre-empted Tiberius when he contacted me on MSN this afternoon with “I already know” … by that time this posting had already undergone 2 revisions)!

Anyway, I joined AtheistForums early October 2008 and despite a number of clashes with other members (theists of course) within a couple of months I was made moderator ... I was deeply flattered, it was known what I was like; it was discussed in private and yet it was still decided I was worth it. I doubt if any of you will ever really know how much it meant to me to be put in such a position of trust ... all I can say is that because of it I visited the forum many times a day (before I'd visit maybe once and then not always as I'd spend time in other forums and on other tasks), that I tried to post original posts, posts on developments in science, abuses in religion, humour, computing, music and much more besides (all in addition to attempting to carry out my moderator role) and as can be seen, at time of writing I am second highest poster in the forum, the second highest number of recommendations and my reputation points puts me third so, when I mean second I really do mean number 2, as I am not prone to posting stupid little comments ... anyway, to get to the point, it meant a lot to me.

Now because others have complained (primarily that snivelling little fuck Frodo who has waged a tactical war of complaint after complaint about me whilst dodging question after question, disingenuously accusing others of falsehood or otherwise claiming he has demonstrated things he hasn't) I have been *fired*. Now if that remark about Frodo doesn’t earn me a ban I don’t know what the fuck will … unless , of course (despite my undeniable antagonism towards the arrogant tosser), it’s because the staff and others see an element of truth in what I say? Who knows? I won’t because I’ll be long gone but it’s worth pointing out that though I’m not going willingly wankers like Frodo DRIVE ATHEISTS AWAY FROM FORUMS LIKE THIS! Anyway, the staff don't refer to it as *fired*, they refer to it as "retired" (which also refers to those who have voluntarily stopped being staff) but, dress it up anyway you like, a forcible (non-voluntary) retirement due to complaints made is being *fired*. I already know that some (Ev in particular which is more than a bit ironic) don't understand why I have to do this but as far as I am concerned, being *fired*is a serious slap in the face, fairly humiliating and something I have no intention of sticking around for especially while that odious little shit Frodo dances the cock-a-hoop and gloats over his victory (enjoy it while you can you disingenuous fuck).

It would be naïve of me to claim this is your loss ... I mean sure, I think it IS yours in the sense of my being a prodigious and fairly intelligent poster (even if I am aggressive I am currently second highest forum poster with many accolades, and indeed, criticisms of my posts so I can only assume I was of some interest, some value) but it is also mine, very much so, as I spent so much time here (50%, maybe more, of my online personal time as well as some of my less busy work time was spent in this place). My problem is, I suppose, that I court controversy, this isn’t the first forum I've left behind and it's unlikely to be the last but, unlike the Frodo's, the Arcanus's and the John Paul's of this world, I don't do devious ... I am utterly WYSIWYG (What You See Is What You Get), unlike them I don't seek to deceive, nor to win at any cost, whatever I say is said in the belief that it is correct and I try my damndest not to be divisive. I am, and nobody in their right mind will deny this (let alone me), aggressive and diplomacy to me is the art of saying "Nice Doggy" until I can find a large enough rock ... I would make an appalling politician because I just can't pretend I am not passionate about things, that I get wound up about things that mean a lot to me, that I can be that dishonest. People like Frodo can ... moreover people like Frodo understand EXACTLY how to push the buttons of people like me, it really isn't hard! Wherever I go on the internet (and even in real life) I court controversy, admittedly on a relatively small scale, and people don't often seem to stay neutral with respect to me for long ... they tend to either like me a lot or really really hate me. I'm fine with that ... I am uncompromisingly honest in my debating style but I am also vicious (some would say vitriolic) when it comes to people who cross me or mine or seek to deceive me and/or exploit others. Again people like Frodo know this, they know how to exploit it ... arguments that they start in subtle and insidious ways will come to be viewed as my fault because of my aggressive style and, as I say above, they know what fucking buttons to push!

I am what I am and I am proud of what I have become both in no longer having an off-the-shelf religious belief and in being able to objectively view almost anything but to cut to the chase ... despite the controversy, I believe I have been a good member here, that I have benefitted this forum far, far more than I have not; I believe I was good moderator and again benefitted the staff more than I didn't (the very same day Rhizo mentioned me to another moderator and Frodo started his latest round of anti-Kyu complaints Darwinian told me what a great job I'd been doing so I thank him for that) and yeah I know some people didn't like the way I've been doing things but that's life. There's even a few things like shhhhhh! that I am directly responsible for introducing here and will remain of use to a privileged few ... I will almost certainly introduce a similar style idea in my new forum which should be in place within a month or so.

I made it clear long ago that if I was ever banned I would leave. I made it clear this time round that if I was demoted from moderator against my will I would leave and that is the case so with some significant regret I am afraid I must be true to myself and do exactly that. Some (very few) of you will be unlucky enough to be kept on my contact lists (facebook or MSN) and fortunately I never bought a T-Shirt, or contributed any funds as I had intended to … it’s not that it’s not good but I couldn't wear it after this debacle). This has both plusses and minuses ... on the minus side there's a lot of you guys I will miss (ironically someone I thought I’d miss turned out to be someone I feel lucky to leave behind), I will miss my time here and I will miss the camaraderie that some of us had. I won't (as must surely be clear by now) miss that that snivelling little creep Frodo (there are few other terms that fit) and I'm genuinely sorry that you guys will still have to put up with the lying twat.

Good luck all and maybe some of you will choose to visit me in my new website, forum & blog when I build it ... it's only just registered so the site will take a while to register.

Kyu