RE: Names.
January 28, 2018 at 5:34 am
(This post was last modified: January 28, 2018 at 5:34 am by Longhorn.)
My mother seems to have cursed me. She had her mind set on a name for me before I was born, but my grandfather didn’t particularly like it, so she went with another option.
I have hated my name with a fiery passion ever since I was little. It didn’t help that no one called me that, nobody at home. They used a diminutive version that sounds completely different. The full name was reserved for people outside, who didn’t know me. That made it feel official and deepened the rift between who I felt I was and what people called me.
I’ve had maybe two nicknames. Only in elementary school and not used widely or often.
Online I’ve been too many things to count. Always changing and always inconsistent.
I used to want to change my name to my middle name but that was in preschool when I had a crush on a girl with that same name, coincidentally the name my mother had intended for me to have.
I’ve been looking. I guess something will feel right when I finally feel right one day.
I have hated my name with a fiery passion ever since I was little. It didn’t help that no one called me that, nobody at home. They used a diminutive version that sounds completely different. The full name was reserved for people outside, who didn’t know me. That made it feel official and deepened the rift between who I felt I was and what people called me.
I’ve had maybe two nicknames. Only in elementary school and not used widely or often.
Online I’ve been too many things to count. Always changing and always inconsistent.
I used to want to change my name to my middle name but that was in preschool when I had a crush on a girl with that same name, coincidentally the name my mother had intended for me to have.
I’ve been looking. I guess something will feel right when I finally feel right one day.