RE: Help me not fear heaven/hell
March 20, 2019 at 12:38 am
(This post was last modified: March 20, 2019 at 12:42 am by fredd bear.)
(March 19, 2019 at 4:21 pm)EgoDeath Wrote:(March 18, 2019 at 7:26 pm)Fleeing Jesus Wrote: Honestly, an afterlife scares me more than oblivion. I’ve suffered from a psychiatric drug-induced condition in the past called akathisia where you can’t stop moving your body (even when exhausted). It’s so terrible that people who suffer from it chronically are six times more likely to kill themselves than people with depression. The thought that there’s no end to that kind of suffering is far scarier than the idea of oblivion at death. I’ve been in tears before begging my parents to tell me that there’s no god so that when I die I will at least be at peace. It’s literally hell on earth and the thought that there’s no end to it is the single worst thing I can imagine.
In all seriousness, have you thought about seeking professional help? Or have you already done so? You seem to have an unhealthy obsession with this. It seems like it'd be super uncomfortable, to say the least.
Not a good idea to let others decide on what you will or will not believe. You have asked THE question. It's up to you to decide. Nobody can decide for you, because nobody actually knows for a fact.
There are great many deluded people unable to distinguish between knowledge and belief. No matter how loudly a believer insists that he KNOWS, the truth remains that he does not know. He merely believes. Unfortunately the only way of finding out is to die.
I'm glad you are seeking professional help. I urge you to seek help from a counsellor who has no religious agenda.
The symptoms you have described sound like "Thanatophobia", or 'death anxiety"unusual but by no means unique. A professional should be able to help you. Good luck.