It actually can be good to have your own personal hell. Fear is a motivator. Decide where you want to be in the next 3 years and write that story. Decide what's the worst place you could be in 3 years and write that story. Viola, your own personal hell and heaven to aim for and motivate you. Hell is a physical place, and if you've never met anyone living in hell you haven't lived very much or helped many other people.
"There ought to be a term that would designate those who actually follow the teachings of Jesus, since the word 'Christian' has been largely divorced from those teachings, and so polluted by fundamentalists that it has come to connote their polar opposite: intolerance, vindictive hatred, and bigotry." -- Philip Stater, Huffington Post
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