I think you are probably overmedicated D, you should talk to your doc and explain that your emotional affect is almost non-existent. All the advice so far is good when dealing with a normal, unmedicated mind, because it will respond to behaviors normally, but the meds you are taking are specifically designed to reduce affect so that it doesn't spike then dive. The bolded part of this post is of utmost importance; if you get anything from this post, take that part the most seriously.
I've taken mellaril before, it is an antipsychotic. All the things I enjoyed in life were about as engaging as staring at a wall. It was very distressing although I didn't even feel distressed. I told this to my phychiatrist and he removed the medication. I wasn't on it for very long so there was no withdrawel for me, but due to the psychotic episode and subsequent personality disolusion that happened which brought about my arrest and commitment to the psych ward, that I've spoken about before on this forum; it took about a year to find any kind of "normal" mental state.
Have you heard of the concept "fake it 'till you make it"? It is what I did. I just kept pretending to feel better and eventually I did. I'm now unmedicated, married, caring for two children with one on the way, and feeling pretty good about my future. I don't even self medicate anymore. I'm certainly not straight edge, but I don't drink alchohol anymore nor do I smoke weed. It has been years since I last consumed magic mushrooms, and I've recently weened myself off of the massive doses of caffeine I was taking.
I've taken mellaril before, it is an antipsychotic. All the things I enjoyed in life were about as engaging as staring at a wall. It was very distressing although I didn't even feel distressed. I told this to my phychiatrist and he removed the medication. I wasn't on it for very long so there was no withdrawel for me, but due to the psychotic episode and subsequent personality disolusion that happened which brought about my arrest and commitment to the psych ward, that I've spoken about before on this forum; it took about a year to find any kind of "normal" mental state.
Have you heard of the concept "fake it 'till you make it"? It is what I did. I just kept pretending to feel better and eventually I did. I'm now unmedicated, married, caring for two children with one on the way, and feeling pretty good about my future. I don't even self medicate anymore. I'm certainly not straight edge, but I don't drink alchohol anymore nor do I smoke weed. It has been years since I last consumed magic mushrooms, and I've recently weened myself off of the massive doses of caffeine I was taking.
