Why do religious people log onto this site?

[Max_Kolbe]

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Cock-knocker.



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Score!

[Mystical]

*chuckles

Why Apophenia, I do believe that would be a direct appeal to humor there

You got off easy this time, new guy.

[Max_Kolbe]

Actually, you're the one who got off easy.

[Mystical]

keep talkin dirty to me an see what happens

[Max_Kolbe]

keep talkin dirty to me an see what happens

Okay, I finally got that. You win. Very funny.

(I'm the youngest of seven. When I was a kid I'd ask my dad, "why did you and Mom have so many kids?" He's say, "we were just pokin' fun." I was thirty before I got it. Oh we'll, you know us theists.)

[Mystical]

Well at least you got it eventually

I don't think we've been properly introduced, my name is Missy and I'm 27 now. I live in the mid-west of USA, smack dab in the Bible belt. So, yes, I know you theists quite well. I enjoy going to churches for weddings I'm photographing, they're beautiful. At first I thought I'd get upset going.. Since I used to be a Christian (although Fr0d0 and others claim to believe I wasn't a true Christian even though they didn't even know me).
It doesn't hurt me to be around religious (I thought it would make me feel left out from heaven and such) so I enjoy going to the churches; because, in the end we're all just people, we all just want to love and live and be happy. I connect with people that way, and I get fulfillment in knowing that they like me for who I am not just what I believe. I don't feel the need to prove to people that I'm a worthwhile individual because I'm so strong in my faith. It used to be my shroud that I was able to fall back on because I didn't know who I was. Now I'm just me, and I like me now. I realized that my entire life I've assumed a state of things (god, heaven, hell) without question. So I decided to start over, after years of wondering where god was. I was always comforted by the idea of god and angels and heaven.. But hell. That always threw me through a loop. Have you ever seen that movie with Robin Williams "What dreams may come" ? That movie will put hair on your chest, to quote my dad. Anyways the plot follows that a woman commits suicide and goes to hell. Her husband dies and goes to heaven, to find out she's gone to hell so he decides to go to hell and save her. I always thought, how incredibly unfair that life on earth was so destitute for people that they seek an escape, just to end up in eternal torment. I have 2 family members who did commit suicide, and two more that I worry about constantly. I always thought, see I'll just go save them if I can just save myself I can then go save them.. But why must I? Why is god so immoveable that they're in hell? Doesn't he understand? It hurt. Every day it hurt me but I went on with life believing that god wouldn't send people to hell for that, or that he'd save them one day. Then I myself, after having lived my life by the totem "the faith of a mustard seed can move a mountain", ended up in a life or death situation on a regular basis from illness. The most poignant in my memory ended me up in the ICU and it was there when I thought this was the room I was never going to leave, and this was one of the last moments of my life--that I realized, hey. Why has god forsaken me? I was so frightened at that moment because I wasn't even sure what would happen when I died anymore. Every shroud of good feelings that my faith in god had given me disappeared in an instant and I was left with startling reality of living second by second fighting to get to the next, because that was all I was sure I did have. I recovered physically but not spiritually. Thereafter I prayed for a little over four years for god to just help me to feel his presence again. I lived in faith that he would one day..I sought him out constantly. Until one day I realized that he had either totally forsaken me for no reason whatsoever, or he didn't exist. I chose to believe that he didn't exist, because the other choice was to believe in a god that wasn't good. I was the best daughter god asked for, in humility and understanding and faith--and he was nowhere.
You're here for reasons I don't quite know but here's my de-conversion story. Hope it helps you understand a bit about why I'm an atheist.