What's everyone up to right now?

[Jackalope]

Yeah, sorry stimbo. I'm bitter as hell right now. I was playing counterstrike and every time I open up my mouth it seems like I give away the fact that I'm a liberal, so people start to troll me. I can't just play counterstrike and talk to people normally without getting trolled. It makes me really weary, putting up with a bunch of nonsense replies, trying to be mature. Then I go and talk to people on this atheist forum. There's these christians there who argue with people for no reason other than to assert their stupid world views, which they'll never change their mind on. So right now I just feel really fucking worn out, I wish I could just talk to some people without feeling like it's going to turn into a shit storm

Turn off voice chat. Problem solved. Personally, I can't be bothered to witness yet another proof of the Greater Internet Fuckwad Theory every time I want to play a game.

[DespondentFishdeathMasochismo]

hahahaha omg I already get what that means at a glance of that little picture 

---

This is a fascinating video.

Really eye opening.

---

In the meantime I'm going to try and sleep. Not because I want to, or because I'm able to, but my body thinks I should.

I really hate being on my own. So sick of nothing to cuddle up to.

To think that there's people who actually strive for this. Shoot for the stars man.

---

Welp, nothing else to do. Time to go back to talking with assholes on counterstrike. Or maybe I should go back to that tinychat where everyone hates me. Fuck man, I don't know. I just want someone to talk to, being lonely and bored is the fucking worst feeling. It's like, I can't even rationalize this, I know it's a stupid fucking idea. I'm just abusing myself and making myself feel like shit for no reason. Not like there's any choice when you have no job or college, you get no respect. That's literally all their is to it. You either get a slave wage job as a subservient bitch, or you're a slave to grades for years and years and years, at least you get some respect though. Other option is just as worse, sitting around with no one who respects you, making life harder and more miserable for yourself. I'm not talking about suicide, because in an ironic way I love my own life, because I think all that other stuff is bullshit; but in an ironic way, don't you sometimes just wish that you had a fucking way out of it all? I'm just so sick of this life, it's so draining.

[DespondentFishdeathMasochismo]

I swear to fucking god, I think I have identified the part of my brain that's most fucked up. Whatever part of my brain responsible for tolerance is just so over worked, it's just totally incapacitated. I think I've done it. I've solved the mystery. The answer was right there in front of me all along. I am just sick and tired of putting up with bullshit. I wonder what I can do with this new found knowledge.

---

Have I truly liberated myself once and for all?

[*Deidre*]

Eating pizza, watching a movie and loving the idea that I have the next 5 days off.

[rexbeccarox]

I'm absolutely drained. Things have been extremely hard on me for almost a year, and it seems every time I turn a corner, there's another something major waiting to pounce. Right now, I'm just watching Silicon Valley (holy crap. This is some funny shit) and winding down for the day so that I have the best chance of my effed-up back feeling better so I can go on a massive door-to-door job hunt (again) tomorrow. If I don't start making some money soon, I don't know what's going to happen. My family have warned me that they won't be helping to support me any longer as of the first of the year, and I don't blame them. I really just want my independence back. I don't need to be rich; I don't need a lot of stuff. I just want to be able to rely on myself, but between my depression, my money issues, and my lack of transportation, I'm having a really hard time seeing that light. I had a job interview yesterday, but it's not viable because, though public transportation can get me there (two and a half hours each way), they need someone for the night shift, and public transport doesn't run late enough here to get home. I'm working part-time as a seasonal employee at a popular store in the mall, but it's not nearly enough to support myself.

Fuck. Sorry for the diary entry. I guess I needed to vent a little.

Anyway... what am I up to right now? Enjoying the shit out of Silicon Valley. Trying to keep worries out of my brain for thirty minutes.

[Joods]

On a more serious note... Things have been sort of okay for me. I'm now waiting for my townhouse to be ready to move into. We're supposed to move on Dec 18. We'll see. Deposit has been paid and the lease has been signed so we continue to live in the motel we've been in since July.

School is going great. I'm now halfway through pre-salon and my grades currently sit at a groovy 99.6% with the last 2 curriculums ending with 100%. Attendance could be better. I'm working on that.

Had surgery back in October. No more issues down south. Won't elaborate on it, but I'm sure some will understand.

Ex is dragging me back to custody court. This time over the youngest. It never ends.

It's been 14 months since he's last let me see my oldest. Once I move, I will be doing what I have to through the courts to change that.

In September, we rescued two 4 week old kittens from getting hit in the road. They are now around 9 or 10 weeks old. Two boys. We named them Dill and Pickles. They are very energetic and I get zero sleep with them around.

Now you know what I've been up to.

[c172]

Scanning my local Int'l airport online. :nerd:

[Edwardo Piet]

Fuck. Sorry for the diary entry. I guess I needed to vent a little.

Personally, I love listening to you ramble. I love ramblers - and when it comes to venting when you ramble... that's just fine

If you wanna PM me to vent any time the offer's there... you are able to PM about anything you don't need to reply to my latest PM to you first, in fact, you never have to reply to that PM if you don't want to.

All up to you, I did go a bit overboard with the size of it lol. Overenthusiasm and too much coffee and all that jazz.

Main thing is, if you ever want to vent but don't feel like posting your venting in a topic, feel free to PM me.

Or just anytime for any reason, feel free to PM me if you want to. You're awesome Becca

[Clueless Morgan]

Drinking wine and thinking of cuddling with stimbo....

[c172]

Watching the #JeopardyLaura hashtag on Twitter. Kind of puzzled as to why people are getting seriously angry at her.