Feeling like dying

[Kayenneh]

Not to mention there are some other things which get in my way. There are few people in this world who sort of make it impossible for me to be where I want to be. I can explain but I'd rather not.

It's not a weakness, but perhaps an obstacle to overcome. You have worth as a human being, and you're entitled to find your own meaning in life, just like everyone else. There will be always rotten eggs, but as soon as you realize that their words can't hurt you (unless you allow them to), you might find peace within yourself. You are the only person you need to impress, you have nothing to prove to others.
If you want a new activity, stay here. The beauty with doing stuff on the net, is that you can always step away if someone tries to get in your face. There will be discord here too, but it could be a fine opportunity to practise dealing with your own emotions regarding what others think of you.

[Fruity]

You need to talk to someone that you feel comfortable being completely open with, and it's best for it to be a professional. You and people around you could be in danger. Please seek help further than the help you say you already have.

I hope you recover and find peace.

[Angrboda]

Get help or don't. I am not going to attempt to provide you with something you are actively refusing.

[feeling]

I hope you recover and find peace.

Oh the peace. Did I not feel it for a long time. I miss those times. I really do.

[Faith No More]

I see them. Anything else?
It's just that there are things I hate. And if those things would not be around I would be happy. It seems like people make life hard for each other. If they would not it would be so much more simple.

If I were you, I would go back and re-read everything you've written here, carefully paying attention to how you phrase your complaints. You're obsessing over how you wish things would be, but happiness and peace come from accepting that much of this world is beyond your control. You're also allowing others to affect you too much. If an activity made you happy, what difference would it make if someone else saw it as pointless and stupid? You'll never be content if you don't live your life for yourself.

[feeling]

I see them. Anything else?
It's just that there are things I hate. And if those things would not be around I would be happy. It seems like people make life hard for each other. If they would not it would be so much more simple.

If I were you, I would go back and re-read everything you've written here, carefully paying attention to how you phrase your complaints. You're obsessing over how you wish things would be, but happiness and peace come from accepting that much of this world is beyond your control. You're also allowing others to affect you too much. If an activity made you happy, what difference would it make if someone else saw it as pointless and stupid? You'll never be content if you don't live your life for yourself.

Well they somehow find a way to get under my skin.
It's just that life is bad enough and people make it worse. That's what I hate. But my mind is sort of receptive to such things. I try to stay away from those things but somehow I do listen to that kind of shit sometimes. Later I get angry at myself for listening to it and say "never again" but then I do listen to this shit again eventually.

It's also funny that in religion vs atheism debate many people use negativity tactics like asking "Well if you are atheist why didn't you kill yourself yet" or arguing who is more happy. Kind of interesting thing to see. Trying to strike the weak place in the opponent even if it has nothing to do with the truth.

[Brian37]

I hate to point out the obvious, but if you're not seeing anyone professional in the field of mental health, you should do so.

I see them. Anything else?
It's just that there are things I hate. And if those things would not be around I would be happy. It seems like people make life hard for each other. If they would not it would be so much more simple.

You cannot change others, only yourself. If you are feeling that depressed like others have said get help. You will never find happiness trying to force others to do what you want and to never upset you.

I suffer from depression sometimes too. You are not the only one. How you cope with it is what is important. Not the negative noise thrown at you in life. The world is not perfect and you will drive yourself nuts trying to change others.

Focus on you first. Don't let other people's baggage become yours. Their problems are theirs, not yours. It matters what you think of yourself, not others.

But in all seriousness, if it is that bad for you, get help. There is nothing wrong with getting help.

[Sejanus]

such feels. many words. wow.

[Rahul]

Well they somehow find a way to get under my skin.
It's just that life is bad enough and people make it worse. That's what I hate. But my mind is sort of receptive to such things. I try to stay away from those things but somehow I do listen to that kind of shit sometimes. Later I get angry at myself for listening to it and say "never again" but then I do listen to this shit again eventually.

It's also funny that in religion vs atheism debate many people use negativity tactics like asking "Well if you are atheist why didn't you kill yourself yet" or arguing who is more happy. Kind of interesting thing to see. Trying to strike the weak place in the opponent even if it has nothing to do with the truth.

You're giving people too much power over you. Fuck them. Peace comes from within.

People are assholes. Their opinions are shit. Ignore them all.