Psychotic Break

[Rhizomorph13]

Ok, just for fun who here has ever had a psychotic break with reality?

I will go on record with a short blurb on my own experience. I was dragged out of my parents home by the cops and taken to a psych ward for two weeks. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia although they said it was drug-induced and I have not researched it further other than by taking all the drugs I was taking at the time to see if it happened again. You see, I find it insulting to think that drugs can just poof me into that state of mind. It only happened the one time. I had to relearn how to relate to reality from the ground up and was a very very strange boy for a year after the experience.

Part of the experience was a belief that I was the second coming of Christ and I was responsible for saving the souls of every person on the planet. I wept openly at the prospect, it was quite a burden.

Rhizo

PS This is SO not a joke! I wish it was.

[Edwardo Piet]

I am on medication for having an 8 week long delusional, manic psychotic episode back in Jan 2007. I believed many delusional things including believing I was Jesus even though I've never been religious (or never other than that (if that counts?)).

I take 800 mg of Lithium a night. I used to also be on an anti-psychotic and a sleeping pill... but that was for a much shorter time - like a few months.

EvF

[leo-rcc]

So you are the one using up all my Lithium. How am I supposed to get cheap batteries if you keep using the stuff.

[Rhizomorph13]

I took mellaril (an anti-psychotic) for a short time after I was out of the hospital. It was a requirement my mother had for me to keep living in the house. I complained that it made me tired and the psychiatrist I was seeing took me off them promptly. I am medication free now, even self-medication. I still drink for entertainment though.

I'm wondering where you got your concept of Jesus if you never went to church or why it would even occur to you? My delusion was based on my studies of the bible and I thought I was fulfilling prophecy. I also met several molevolent spirits while in solitary.

Rhizo

[tackattack]

So describe what it was like the moment of your break? Anyone

[fr0d0]

Euphoric for me.

[Edwardo Piet]

I knew of the concept of Jesus if only from TV references and ... moreover: reading random parts of the Bible just to take the piss. And reading a bit of Evilbible.com.

EvF

[Dotard]

I had the pleasure of working as an orderly at the state mental hospital. No, I never got to have a break from reality, psychotic wise, but I did get to watch a bunch of them, tackle a few, toss them into the rubber room.

What was really entertaining is when two of the basket cases would both claim to be Jesus and get to duking it out over who was Jesus. Each one would accuse the other of being the anti-christ.

Sometimes I would play God. More than once we'd have a psycho who'd refuse their medication.
I would wait until later when they were lying quietly in their bed and I would hide behind the door.

"Jose'.....Jose'....this is the Lord. Take your medicina. For it is good. It has been blessed."
Worked a couple times.

Another good one, I'd go get our resident Jesus (there was ALWAYS one) to "bless" the refusers medication for him. That worked sometimes too.

Oh the fun. I miss those years.


edited to add: Yes, I found your (not specifically you, generally speaking) mental illnesses entertaining, so sue me.

[Edwardo Piet]

Euphoric for me.

Well that's certainly what it FELT like for me too - the experience was awesome but the aftermath was...... "oooooh shit..." lol.

EvF

[Rhizomorph13]

Dotard,

Psychotic people are amusing! I speak to homeless people sometimes just for the interesting stories they tell about angels giving them machine guns to kill mobsters, or they explain they are a rug and want you to walk on parts of themselves they have spread around them (carpet samples mostly).

Tackattack,

There was no moment. Losing one's mind is a process not an event. My story is too personal to really get into too much detail, but I could tell you some of the contributing factors. Girlfriend cheating on me, rampant drug use (meth, LSD, pot, booze, nitrous oxide), parties at all times of the night (sleep deprivation is a bitch!), parents turning their back on me, brother turning his back on me, basically just life stressors building up in a really short time. I was a Christian of sorts at the time and was trying to figure out how all those things could fit into my walk with god. lol

I think the trick to stay sane is to just pay attention to what is going on and if you don't like the way things are going, change what you are doing.

Rhizo