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My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 5:55 pm
Hello, everyone! I'm Jenn and I'm from Atlanta. I have just recently come to terms with my atheism. I tried so hard, even after "coming out" as a Christian de-convert, to pick some sort of religious practice. Even if you're a theistic Pagan people seem to accept that far more readily than if you say you don't believe in any deities. My family knows I am not a Christian, but only my husband knows I'm an atheist (he is one as well). I suppose I've always known. I desperately wanted to believe. I was raised a deacon's daughter in the Baptist church. I knew all about the good 'ol King James Bible, wearing ankle-length dresses to church, that science is evil, that Christian Contemporary Music is satanic, because it sounds like rock and roll. My husband and I were ridiculed for not wanting children (we each have sons from previous marriages, but we chose not to have kids together) and told "children are a heritage from the Lord". All through the years, no matter how much scripture I memories, no matter how many Sandi Patty songs I sang as solos, no matter how readily my public prayers flowed or how many areas of ministry I was involved in I never felt anything. Sure, I said "the sinner's prayer" as a young teen when a boy I wanted to date told me he wouldn't date a non-believer.
Coming to terms with my lack of faith in Christianity was immensely difficult, since my father is now an ordained minister and pastor of a church. I received quite the fair share of ridicule for it. Eventually the shock wore off and things settled down. Coming to terms with my atheism, on a personal level, was like a weight being lifted from my shoulders. It allowed me to finally be true to myself. It was the only thing that ever made sense to me.
In my spare time I dance. I take two classes a week and love it. I am so happy to find this forum and look forward to being a part of the discussions here.
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 5:59 pm
Good intro. Welcome to the party.
I've never heard of a Christian thinking that contemporary Christian music is satanic. Usually they have a raging boner for that type of music and can't part with their money fast enough to get it.
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 6:00 pm
(October 19, 2015 at 5:55 pm)Jaxxie1181 Wrote: Hello, everyone! I'm Jenn and I'm from Atlanta. I have just recently come to terms with my atheism. I tried so hard, even after "coming out" as a Christian de-convert, to pick some sort of religious practice. Even if you're a theistic Pagan people seem to accept that far more readily than if you say you don't believe in any deities. My family knows I am not a Christian, but only my husband knows I'm an atheist (he is one as well). I suppose I've always known. I desperately wanted to believe. I was raised a deacon's daughter in the Baptist church. I knew all about the good 'ol King James Bible, wearing ankle-length dresses to church, that science is evil, that Christian Contemporary Music is satanic, because it sounds like rock and roll. My husband and I were ridiculed for not wanting children (we each have sons from previous marriages, but we chose not to have kids together) and told "children are a heritage from the Lord". All through the years, no matter how much scripture I memories, no matter how many Sandi Patty songs I sang as solos, no matter how readily my public prayers flowed or how many areas of ministry I was involved in I never felt anything. Sure, I said "the sinner's prayer" as a young teen when a boy I wanted to date told me he wouldn't date a non-believer.
Coming to terms with my lack of faith in Christianity was immensely difficult, since my father is now an ordained minister and pastor of a church. I received quite the fair share of ridicule for it. Eventually the shock wore off and things settled down. Coming to terms with my atheism, on a personal level, was like a weight being lifted from my shoulders. It allowed me to finally be true to myself. It was the only thing that ever made sense to me.
In my spare time I dance. I take two classes a week and love it. I am so happy to find this forum and look forward to being a part of the discussions here.
Ok, there's a lot of sheer nuttery you were exposed to as a child, but the bit about contemporary Christian music being Satanic is arguably true -- though certainly not because it sounds like rock and roll because it doesn't. It's just fucking awful and causes me to want to hurt people. Pure evil.
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 6:01 pm
Welcome Jaxxie!
Your story is one that probably shocks our members from other less benighted countries. Yes, Christianity in the US can really be oppressive. Like a goddamn cult.
In any case, welcome. We're a wild, unsavory bunch.
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 6:03 pm
Hi Jenn! You sure have been put through the wringer with religion.
I have to agree, though, Christian rock IS satanic. It makes me want to stab out my eyeballs, only Satan himself could be behind that. 
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 6:26 pm
Welcome aboard.
Glad you escaped the insanity.
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 6:37 pm
Welcome Jaxxie!
"The family that prays together...is brainwashing their children."- Albert Einstein
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 6:50 pm
Well, there are various different types of Xian music. There's gospel, there's Christian versions of all the big genres, like heavy metal, rap, etc. And there's that sterile, yet trying-to-be-funky megachurch music you hear at non-denom fellowships in rich places like Scottsdale, AZ.
And then, there's Sonseed.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_mXPyBNxs4
Welcome! Hope you enjoy yourself.
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 10:43 pm
Welcome aboard.
Quote: Even if you're a theistic Pagan people seem to accept that far more readily than if you say you don't believe in any deities.
I've noticed that, too. I think it is because a lot of people are just stupid but I have a low tolerance for them.
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RE: My Proper Introduction
October 19, 2015 at 11:16 pm
One thing I do agree with SoBs about ... Stryper is of the devil.
Welcome to the forums from a fellow recovering SoB.
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