RE: Why are you an atheist?
December 22, 2015 at 6:17 pm
My atheism was a process that took a many years to fully complete. I was raised baptist and I held beliefs that were somewhat in line with typical teachings. I rationalized what I would later perceive as nonsense by calling it metaphor.
I started out simply skeptical of obvious bullshit like magic, ghosts, and psychics. I don't think I
ever bought into any of those. I could never before or even now understand how anyone could truly believe in such things. The people I was exposed to at church often talked about demons; another nonsense I never could swallow. Statements like 'the devil made me do it' have always, even in my most religious days, seemed like a cheap excuse for a person just doing something they weren't proud of and not owning up to it. Lame.
I developed a strong interest in science, particularly astronomy, and began teaching myself. I bought a telescope and started learning from books, the internet, and podcasts like
Astronomy Cast. (That last one, podcasts, will prove very important to my de-conversion later.)
I also developed a taste for punk music. Particularly the LA Hardcore variety. There are a lot of bands in this genre that express hard left political views and
anti-establishmentarianism... Categories into which religion does not fit well. Specifically, bands like NOFX, Bad Religion, and Propaghandi etc... were frequently on my playlist.
One day I was searching for a new astronomy related podcast and I stumbled upon
The SGU... This introduced me to the skeptical movement and more pseudo-scientific topics that I ever thought existed! From there, I began looking for more skeptical podcasts. Some of the content had atheist themes but I wasn't ready to accept that just yet.
Skeptoid,
Rationally Speaking, and
TWIS along with the SGU became what I would go to when I got bored.
I went on digesting all this new information for some time while largely ignoring the atheist content. I learned a lot about pseudoscience, proliferation of myths, and logical fallacies. I started talking to my friends and family about these topics and I was surprised to find that pretty much everybody had an irrational belief in
something! I figured out that changing minds can be a difficult and painful chore; so, I decided to leave them alone unless the subject came up without my intervention. In retrospect, this decision was wise.
As for turning away from religion, I can't remember a specific moment. A combination of all of the above cooked in my brain like a rational stew. It happened slowly as I applied my newly acquired critical thinking skills to my own beliefs. I began ignoring the atheist content less and actually started seeking it out. I became more comfortable with the idea that I might not believe. Then began to realize that I didn't believe and there wasn't much choice in the matter. The day I said out loud to another person that "I'm an atheist" was scary and I was fortunately met with acceptance. I think it was a day or two later that I joined this forum.