Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[J a c k]

CIJS...

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Keep trying.
It's been years of this, but I'm almost there. Right? I can almost feel it. Almost touch it. This time it will be mine. I can almost breathe it. I can almost breathe the freshness of... being happy. It's at the tip of my fingers, but then... you can't have it. You don't want me to be happy. You find ways to take it from me (as is your habit) and you do it with spite, coldness, passion. 2011. 2012. 2013. 2014. All of 2015. All of 2016. I can't keep doing this. I just want to sleep. I'm so done trying to be strong. I'm finished thinking I can find happiness. I can't. I won't. Happy? Get some sleep. Stop knocking on my door. You haven't slept in days trying to see how many other ways you can find to hurt me. I won't even fight it anymore. Let me melt away. I have nothing left. No health. No strength. No ambition. No dreams. No fucken motivation. I'm dead in life. My shaking hands... they're stiff now. I don't even feel human. I don't feel alive. I'm walking around like frozen flesh just lost and ready to collapse. Let me collapse. I don't even feel like I belong here anyway. Go on. Enjoy. Ruin this one, too. I don't care. I want nothing. I want nothing.

[ukatheist]

(((mama)))

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[Expired]

Just being honest: I have to say this. I can't stand by and watch any longer.

Following on from posts Excited Penguin has made recently, I want to let everyone know my opinion about him. I've held back until now, but he has forced my hand. This is entirely my personal opinion and does not represent the staff in any way.

He's quite possibly a psycopath, putting on a fairly good show as a normal human. He's a vicious heartless manipulator. He collects personal information from people and then uses it against them, both in private where he can get away with it, and in "coded" fashion in public in order to skirt the rules. He isolates and abuses people. I have seen this all first hand, it is not speculation. He is very good at selecting vulnerable people, at their most vulnerable point. I advise everyone to have as little to do with him as possible, to avoid getting emotionally attached, and to not give him any personal information. He is a complete and utter fake. He is extremely dangerous.

Shit, I told him my pin number.

[Joods]

CIJS -

It stung. Badly. It was so much worse than a really bad dream. And unless you've lived through it, you have no idea of the sort of impact that had on me. Your words resurfaced all the guilt and horror and shame I had left behind long ago. How dare you. How dare you take someone's personal story and twist it to suit your own demented agenda. Was I triggered? Fuck yes I was. I have PTSD. That is well known. And for you to do what you did to me, and trivialize what I went through and have the sheer nerve to blame ME for what happened, was more than just disgusting. It was vile and mean and sick. Not to mention completely uncalled for. And then you further dug that knife in and actually suggested, in so many words that I was selfish for not thinking of anyone else? Fuck you, you god damn, mother fucking, crusty, twat waffle.

I was going to leave this place. But the people who kindly reached out to me, have convinced me that I matter. No, I won't run from this. I will stand my ground. But understand this much, the next time a hurricane blows through your fucking backyard, I hope it takes you and drags you out to sea, destroys your home, your business and tears your family apart. I hope the losses you suffer are so severe that you are in constant torment for the rest of your natural born life.

I can and will gladly have respect, compassion and empathy for anyone, even those I don't mesh well with - until they do me dirty as you have done. Then all bets are off. You crossed a fucking line. Don't expect me to play nice if you are allowed to stay. And if I get banned for saying what I have, so be it. I really don't give a flying fuck anymore. What you said was just deplorable. You aren't human. You aren't decent. You lack so many things that normal people possess, it's actually quite fucking pathetic.

[robvalue]

Just being honest: I have to say this. I can't stand by and watch any longer.

Following on from posts Excited Penguin has made recently, I want to let everyone know my opinion about him. I've held back until now, but he has forced my hand. This is entirely my personal opinion and does not represent the staff in any way.

He's quite possibly a psycopath, putting on a fairly good show as a normal human. He's a vicious heartless manipulator. He collects personal information from people and then uses it against them, both in private where he can get away with it, and in "coded" fashion in public in order to skirt the rules. He isolates and abuses people. I have seen this all first hand, it is not speculation. He is very good at selecting vulnerable people, at their most vulnerable point. I advise everyone to have as little to do with him as possible, to avoid getting emotionally attached, and to not give him any personal information. He is a complete and utter fake. He is extremely dangerous.

Shit, I told him my pin number.

Me too. It's okay, I don't have any money.

I didn't take this decision lightly to speak out. I don't like doing it this way. I felt I had no other choice, I value the safety of the members here too much.

[Expired]

Pets at home.... Daylight robbery. I'm going to B and M next time.

[J a c k]

I'm legitimately afraid of you and I don't know what to do. I thought I could keep you balanced by not making you too angry, but suddenly it's not working. I have lost relationships to protect them from you, but now nothing seems to help. Fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!! I beg you to PLEASE let me live!

[thesummerqueen]

[hugs]

[Joods]

((((Hugs))))

Perhaps it's time for a restraining order?

[GrandizerII]

Shit, I told him my pin number.

Me too. It's okay, I don't have any money.

I didn't take this decision lightly to speak out. I don't like doing it this way. I felt I had no other choice, I value the safety of the members here too much.

And that is why I have a really hard time putting too much trust in anyone I don't know really well, especially if I only know them online.