Still here.

[Silver]

I won't state have hope, because that just isn't me. As one whose mind always goes to the most grim scenario, I can understand where you are. But I'm also the type of person to shove it into the back of my mind and seek a constructive outlet via my writing.

Continue with your therapy, if need be. And find something that works for you.

[Nay_Sayer]

I won't state have hope, because that just isn't me. As one whose mind always goes to the most grim scenario, I can understand where you are. But I'm also the type of person to shove it into the back of my mind and seek a constructive outlet via my writing.

Continue with your therapy, if need be. And find something that works for you.

Right now I'm living for others. There may be a day I can find something within myself to live for as well.

All I feel right now is a slow impending horrid dread

[Aoi Magi]

Imagine you’re standing in the middle of a scorched forest, nothing but ash and charred trees all around you. It seems impossible that anything green could ever grow here again. Giving up would be the easiest option—why bother hoping for life to return to such a wasteland? But then you notice a small, stubborn sapling, somehow untouched by the flames, still reaching for the sun. You could walk away, sure, thinking it’s pointless to protect just one tree in such a bleak place. But if you nurture it, that sapling might survive, grow, and slowly bring life back to the forest, one leaf at a time.

Sometimes, life feels like that burned forest—a place of loss that seems to have nothing left to offer. But holding on, even when things seem hopeless, can be the first step toward change. Sticking around might feel hard, but it’s the only way to see life slowly return from the ashes.

The only problem is I can't see anything returning from this, Perhaps, maybe, far beyond my lifetime

You are Nay_sayer not a soothsayer, so don't assume that nothing will change for the better in future.

You are quite young, and have a long life ahead! There's a lot to see and lot to do!

Yeah things might really go downhill, but they might also change for the better. Whatever the case, you can always just come here to rant or celebrate together, no point in giving up!