I feel defeated. I got a call from my boss today for a cleaning job. I pep talked myself. You can do this. You have to. You need to. I worked for 2 hours and had to call it quits. I'll go back tomorrow. I have no energy for this. If anyone knows a job that pays me to be completely useless...please let me know.

(September 16, 2016 at 6:17 pm)Losty Wrote: I'm the same with LFC. I never ever get an alert when she quotes me. It makes me have teh big huge sadz

You've gotta say, "Magic Mod Powers...Activate !"

Or something like that.

(September 16, 2016 at 6:20 pm)Losty Wrote: I feel defeated. I got a call from my boss today for a cleaning job. I pep talked myself. You can do this. You have to. You need to. I worked for 2 hours and had to call it quits. I'll go back tomorrow. I have no energy for this. If anyone knows a job that pays me to be completely useless...please let me know.

Would you consider soaking in  bathtub full of water as cold as you can stand, and then laying perfectly still in bed for a while ?                                                                             I know someone with some rather exotic tastes in sexy time . . .

Crossing the lines of creepiness a bit...

Feeling and ramblings:

I'm very vulnerable sometimes... but I'm still feeling empowered. Oh wow.

Amazing. Incredible. Strong. Hopeful.

When I'm venting it's so hard for me to be there for others. I keep trying but I don't stop I get so damn emotional.

At least when I don't need to vent I don't need to AT ALL and I can be there 100% for everyone

I'm the kind of person who...... I either struggle to be there for my friends at all or I can be there like 100%. I'm very all or nothing.

Woot.

Thinking about the number 14 today. It's my favorite for so very very many reasons. One my favorite birthday was my 14th. Two it's a number I type to make my favorite 'In game taunt' for my favorite game of all time. Three I get money every 14 days. Four 7 is supposed to be a lucky number but it's the first multiple of 7 that is an even number and I prefer even numbers so much more. I'm sure there are many more reasons. I associate beauty with that number...

...Us silly humans and our associating feelings to things even when we fully recognize it's irrational eh? Well at least I only feel it and don't believe it actually has any significant meaning. It's a number. The number 14. But I just have emotional associations with it. Anyways....

I overcomplicate everything. I try so hard to clarify stuff. I frustrate myself how I am sometimes.

And I hope I never frustrate anyone with my own stupidity. I'm very smart in some ways but I can be stupid too sometimes

My mind is open to anyone kind and lovely enough to let me be the kind of friend they want me to be. And it's especially easy when it's a friend who has only ever been lovely to me.

I try not to make assumptions but some assumptions are reasonable to make so by not making them I seem slow. I shut my brain off to even obvious assumptions sometimes.

I would never call a person I care about stupid. Except myself but that's only because I can't really offend myself lol.

I don't treat people as I would have them treat me. I treat people how they like to be treated. I prefer not to make assumptions so I like to simply... ask people how they like to be treated and what kind of friend they want

I like complementariness. I don't expect people to be fair in the sense of 'same' because everyone is different. I wouldn't expect any two particular friends to both be heads or both be tails on a coin. It's okay to be heads and tails. It's good to complement and just harmonize that's how I feel. Embrace differences and enjoy similarities.

I like it when I elaborate.

I love having two convos at once. It is stimulating

It's the mind I find most beautiful of all.

Feel free to... to whatever. Feel free to be my lovely friends! As you do. Just Got To Be.



I'd love to play with you whoever you be if you'd love to play with me whoever me be.

This is one of my weaknesses in life I think. It's both a strength and a weakness. My openness to many possibilities. It's a strength because my options are open but it is a weakness because I can never make my mind up lol.


Turtle heart for AF:



My day is indeed bright.

And you're all so sweet.

Anyway hehe... bye. Hehe.

(September 16, 2016 at 8:12 pm)Losty Wrote: Crossing the lines of creepiness a bit...

(September 16, 2016 at 8:06 pm)vorlon13 Wrote:

(September 16, 2016 at 6:20 pm)Losty Wrote: I feel defeated. I got a call from my boss today for a cleaning job. I pep talked myself. You can do this. You have to. You need to. I worked for 2 hours and had to call it quits. I'll go back tomorrow. I have no energy for this. If anyone knows a job that pays me to be completely useless...please let me know.

Would you consider soaking in  bathtub full of water as cold as you can stand, and then laying perfectly still in bed for a while ?                                                                             I know someone with some rather exotic tastes in sexy time . . .

Depends on who it is.

D: ugh it's too gross guys. Y u do dis to me

(September 15, 2016 at 6:31 pm)Thena323 Wrote: Stuffy nose, headache, cough, and a bit of a sore throat.
Can't even hit my old bottle of 'good' cough syrup, because of random drug-testing at work.

I'd have to go the doc and get a new script.

Dammit.

Awe...I hope you feel better soon

(September 16, 2016 at 10:25 pm)Nymphadora Wrote:

(September 15, 2016 at 6:31 pm)Thena323 Wrote: Stuffy nose, headache, cough, and a bit of a sore throat.
Can't even hit my old bottle of 'good' cough syrup, because of random drug-testing at work.

I'd have to go the doc and get a new script.

Dammit.

Awe...I hope you feel better soon

Took four different single-medication drugs to mimic the effect of Tussionex. Worked like a charm; No pain, zero coughing and out like a lamp within half an hour to 40 minutes. Slept all night. Felt 80% better the following morning.

Sleep...the real wonder drug.