How's Everyone Feeling Right Meow?

[Excited Penguin]

Be strong for him, CD. That's all I can tell you for sure.

[Jackalope]

I am. He needs me.

[Thumpalumpacus]

I want my son home, I know he can't be for awhile. He is where he needs to be.

I remember my father saying one time that perhaps I might get repaid for the trouble I put my parents through. OK, yes, that's an asshole thing today, but the man from a different time and not long for the world so it'll not argue with him.

I don't believe in such cosmic balance sheets to be sure but I suppose there is a poetic justice here. I realize I have been vague and to exactly what happened but there's a reason for that.

His mom.... I can't be with her - ever - but she was so distraught yesterday. She shouldn't have been driving. On her behalf I apologize for anyone Wives's stuck in the aftermath on I-5 south near the OR-WA border. She's OK, some whiplash and bruising from seat belts and air bags.... she always did follow too close.

I called the insurance co's bluff and am keeping my boy where he needs to be. I'll appeal the final denial if and when it comes and I'll be bringing a lawyer to make sure fucking Blue Cross Blue Shield of Texas does the right goddamned thing.

Can you believe this shit? My 14 year old attempted suicide by asphyxiation on Monday and on Friday they're saying he doesn't need to be in the hospital - because he is ashamed to verbalize his feelings of self-harm and that particular checkbox can't be checked.

I'm so sorry you're living with this, my friend. I can't imagine the welter of feelings you must be experiencing.

<brohug>

[Jackalope]

Feeling kind of empty. I'm making plans for some changes in routine and such when my son comes home and that's good but when I stop, and have time to think about what has transpired, I despair. So many unknowns in the immediate future.

[vorlon13]

sorry to see all that

I got nothing . . .

[Athene]

Feeling kind of empty.  I'm making plans for some changes in routine and such when my son comes home and that's good but when I stop, and have time to think about what has transpired, I despair.  So many unknowns in the immediate future.

Don't know what it's like to be in your shoes, but I imagine "what if" would drive me up a fucking wall. 
It's a terrifying thought, imagining myself trying to "fix" a loved one who's suffering in this manner. I would imagine the more people on board with seeing him through this, the better. 

I hope that things go as well as they can for you and your family, CD.

[Thumpalumpacus]

Yeah, I shudder to think of walking in your moccasins, bud. Add to that the fact that all such situations are unique ... No doubt you're looking into professional help. Perhaps the VA can get you in to see a professional? Even if only for ideas?

[Jackalope]

I have private coverage and a long term existing relation with an excellent therapist so I'm good in that regard. The VA and I parted company some time after the first gulf war.

In any case, I'm managing at least minimally, I'm not engaging in self-destructive behaviors. Most just trying to do what needs to be done. It weighs heavily though.

I used to think parenting was merely difficult.

[Shell B]

Can you believe this shit?   My 14 year old attempted suicide by asphyxiation on Monday and on Friday they're saying he doesn't need to be in the hospital - because he is ashamed to verbalize his feelings of self-harm and that particular checkbox can't be checked.

Oh my fucking god, CD. I've been debating asinine shit in this forum all day and didn't even notice this. Fuck the insurance company. You can deal with that later. When I was hospitalized, I dealt with the financial shit later. How can they say someone who tried to kill himself is not suicidal after a couple of days? They can't. You're doing the right thing.

You have the option of a partial "hospitalization" after his release. It would put him in a structured clinical setting for most of the day while he gets therapy and then he would spend his evenings at home. It's usually about two weeks, but I've seen insurance companies bounce people out of these programs before patients are ready. They literally won't keep you in some of them if your insurance is up. Fuckfaces. The counselors are supposed to help you with figuring out "aftercare." They're not always good at it. If you feel like they're doing a shit job, look into it yourself or ask a social worker specifically what after care is available.

I don't want to share anything too personal that is still being dealt with legally, but I know exactly what you're going through, minus the shortened hospitalization (and there was only a half-hearted attempt, so no medical issues). Teenage boys struggle a lot. It's terrifying. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

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I used to think parenting was merely difficult.

Parenting will eat you alive. It will keep you connected to people you hate, make you live your life in fear, make you question everything you do. It also gives you a kid, so it balances out. I'm "just" a stepparent of a kid whose dad I divorced years ago, but he always wishes me a happy mother's day, so I feel like a mom. His mom certainly didn't help me raise him.

[Edwardo Piet]

Feeling emotionally centred and comfortable in my own skin.