Got Symptoms?

[Phatt Matt s]

There's been a lot of talk about mental illness at a different thread but it's kind of not the topic of that thread so I moved the comment here. If you'd like to talk about Bi-polar, schizophrenia, rage, Clinical Depression, social phobia, panic attacks, OCD, Autism, or Religion, don't be shy

Also, if you've ever had to be commited (locked up) to the loony bin please share.

Yes mentally ill can be temporary and go into remission. I've known people that have a psychotic break and have to be hospitalized then go back to not being Psychotic for a long time. Sometimes it flares up again.

I think ADHD is an illness because people get disability for it. Not completely sure however. I was definitely dual diagnosed.

What stops me from killing myself is that my suffering can be used to help others. I've seen that when I get hospitalized or go to facilities. I'm able to connect very well with people, especially those who are extremely depressed, social phobic, or anxious.

I was diagnosed ADD because I'm a space cadet. People say "you're not here you look in outer space". People say I stare off into space very intensely and don't here very well when doing so. Make chronic careless mistakes, Difficulty focusing during lectures. In fact I'm only really able to keep my attention on porn it seems but I am not much of a porn user anymore. Go months sometimes due to interior convictions that I'm a creep.

Mind is ussually else where when there should be nothing distracting it. Constantly misplacing things; Constantly reliving past experiences (some of this could be PTSD) or worrying about the future, or floods of horrifyiing thoughts and temptations; (I've got a hot cup of hot tea in hand or cleaning the deep fat fry station and have a big pail of 350+degree grease and the intense disturbing impulse to pour it on people arises, every fucking time).

Squirm alot, bounce when standing still, chew fingers, make weird noises, strange facial ticks, outbursts of random phrases or profanity without intending to, If I go to Church I ussually don't stay with the congregation but go to the basement and pace back and forth cuz it's hard to sit still.

Get urges to walk with weird postures or walk on toes. It feels better and a relief to walk in these weird postures. People have said, what the hell...I said what...turns out I was walking forward with my torso bent extremely to the left. Didn't know it. This doesn't happen all the time.

I can dance extremely funky though. Like Napolean Dynamite people say!

Impulsively saying or doing what is inappropriate but not realizing it beforehand, irritability, excessive talking, or the opposite, excessive living behind a wall were the mind runs wild and is not interested in anyone around and gets very annoyed when people start talking, blurts out answers before the question is completed, feels great discomfort when not being able to blurt things out, difficulty waiting in line, weird sense of humor.

Major changes in personality. Whatever the Hell it is. Docs don't agree on what it is.

[John V]

I'm not saying another thread isn't appropriate, but FYI there are a number of older threads about mental illness here, browse a bit or do a search and you'll find some. People love talking about it for some reason.

[Phatt Matt s]

I'm not saying another thread isn't appropriate, but FYI there are a number of older threads about mental illness here, browse a bit or do a search and you'll find some. People love talking about it for some reason.

I knew it was in other threads. It's all over the thread on "what's everybody up to now?" but then others start posting what they're doing while others are talking about mental illness and a lot of posts get lost as multiple topics are being discussed. I'm very guilty of getting off topic so I didn't want to keep discussing this on that thread.

My bad! Should have been more thorough in searching the forum.

[John V]

My bad!

No, I'm just saying there are older threads from before you started here that you might find interesting.

[Rhizomorph13]

OP some of the things you post remind me of me. I'm older now, almost 40, and many of my kookier affectations have diminished a great deal. Some just because, and others due to much effort on my part to appear more normal. Age make things easier I think. Don't worry so much and concentrate on how you feel in the now. I did spend a couple weeks in a psych ward on a police hold. It sucked so much I promised myself that I would try to color in the lines more often so as not to wake the sleepers around me. I used to envy them but now I'm more like them and kind of miss myself. Grass is greener...

[Phatt Matt s]

Does anyone else feel a chronic emptiness, disorientation, or like you never belong where you're at or using your gifts?

Or go through periods of time where you're excited and interested in something that it consumes you, so that you can't focus on other things, but is followed a loss of interest in this activitiy and relationship, followed by depression and hopelessness.

This is a reoccurring pattern.

Anyone else have reocurring thoughts of death? Or suicide?

[Jackalope]

People love talking about it for some reason.

That probably is related to the inability of people who don't share an affliction to understand the experience of mental illness - and the subject makes a lot of people uncomfortable. I know I have gone through long periods where the only person who I could talk to was my therapist - and therapists are unfortunately not as available as needed.

Mental illness can be an extremely lonely experience.

[Jackalope]

Does anyone else feel a chronic emptiness, disorientation, or like you never belong where you're at or using your gifts?

Or go through periods of time where you're excited and interested in something that it consumes you, so that you can't focus on other things, but is followed a loss of interest in this activitiy and relationship, followed by depression and hopelessness.

This is a reoccurring pattern.

Anyone else have reocurring thoughts of death? Or suicide?

I have experienced all of the above to varying degrees over the course of the last three+ decades.

[GirlyMan]

Anyone else have reocurring thoughts of death? Or suicide?

Frequently when I was your age. Less and less as I've gotten older. Still pull out my exit bag every couple of years to check the pressure in the nitrogen tank and just gaze at the works and shit. ... shit, feels like it's time again and shit.

[Phatt Matt s]

Does anyone else feel a chronic emptiness, disorientation, or like you never belong where you're at or using your gifts?

Or go through periods of time where you're excited and interested in something that it consumes you, so that you can't focus on other things, but is followed a loss of interest in this activitiy and relationship, followed by depression and hopelessness.

This is a reoccurring pattern.

Anyone else have reocurring thoughts of death? Or suicide?

I have experienced all of the above to varying degrees over the course of the last three+ decades.

I'm very sorry! It is Hell! Have you been hospitalized?