Why are you so angry when I tell you you were never a christian? You don't believe there in God. You can call me every name under the sun and it won't won't make me those. You can try to define faith as a feeling but it won't make it be defined that. You may try to redfine the word flawed it won't changed the fact that you do have a problem with sin. You may feel as though you were more of an elete christian than I ever will be. I don't need to know the devine secrets you speak about I know the One who knows everything. You felt like christians but God says that the heart is deceitful above all else that is why you need a new one. Since you are familiar with the bible you will know that Jesus said that many will say lord lord we cast out demons in your name but he will say away from me I NEVER KNEW YOU. Feeling like you have had a revelation and knowing who God is different. Your feelings will lie to you but God won't. You are sinners and God loves you and sent His son jesus to die for your sins. Then He rose with all power and authority. Your feelings in the matter will not change that. You must repent and accept the gift. Now you may continue to throw your verbal abuse if that makes you feel better.
"The trustworthiness of God’s behavior in His world is the foundation of all scientific truth." A.W. Tover "Knowledge of the Holy"