If you were ever a theist...

[Angrboda]

I came to my belief through intuition. As long as my belief remained an intuitive truth, I didn't have to question it. I was a believing Hindu, but not a very knowledgeable one, as I had not been raised in the tradition. So I knew what I believed, but I didn't know all the stories and texts. I decided I wanted to change that, but I faced a practical problem. Which stories to take as meaningful to my faith, and which to disregard? I came to realize that the only way to enrich my faith was by picking and choosing based on a rational sense of what was and was not useful. But I had been avoiding reason as I 'knew' it couldn't trump my intuition. But I was faced with a turning point in which I could only depend on reason to illuminate my belief. So I chose reason. Once having made that choice, I re-evaluated what my intuition had been telling me, and, over time, realised that rational explanations made as much sense of my experience as intuition. So I abandoned my intuitive grasp of reality as interpreted by Hinduism, and over time, embraced the rationalist account of reality instead. I'm still somewhat uncomfortable distrusting my intuition, but I had to make a choice, and the only options available to me were reason and reason.