If you were ever a theist...

[Brakeman]

Why do you fear public analyzation and critique? Are you emotionally bonded to your perception? Why? Why would you feel more comfortable unless you were avoiding a harsher truth?

Is this supposed to cause me to want to share? 

Actually no. I wouldn't expect that. If you really had found any significant evidence of god that was rational and logical, you would have told us already just like any other theist. It would be on the six o'clock news.
What I'd hoped you would share is why you suddenly felt emotionally bonded to a god idea when you have seen us debunk so much "Garden of Eden, Noah's Ark, God the loving caring god, and other relevant christian topics on this forum. It would seem to me that going back to theism now would be an extreme example of god of the gaps when you only believe the gaps.

If  you really did experience contact or found rational evidence of a real god, why would you let us go to hell because you won't share it with us? Do you really want all of us to be tortured for all eternity? Wouldn't that be akin to a christian not following jesus' command to spread their witness? Sure, we would grill you about it but if it withstood scrutiny as truth, it could save so many souls here. This is an atheist forum where we are full of members that are yet unconvinced of the god claims and we share daily our reasons for being unconvinced, taking more out of the possible fold for jesus. I can't imagine a better target group that needs to hear of convincing evidence of god's reality.

If you are sure the spiritural event was solid evidence givent to you by god, but private, why wouldn't he give me, or Min, or Rob the same or similar evidence events? Why are you better than me? Why does god love you better than Rob? Do you know?

I don't doubt your sincerity for a moment and your good heart shows in many of your caring sympathetic comments you have made on this board. I don't want to hammer you at all over your change, it's your right to believe in anything and for any reason. I am notoriously curious, but please don't share anything you don't want to. I just want you to assure us that you are being true to yourself and are not just afraid to face life without your security blanket. I say this because I do like you and want to offer help of rational analysis along with the other great minds found on this forum. If, as I asked, you are emotionally bonded to the theistic perception and  don't want your thought structure second guessed, then you probably wouldn't want to post anything about your re-conversion events.

 We curious cats will still be stuck to wonder why the emotional bond to theism and why the refusal to share your witness as commanded by jesus?