If you were ever a theist...

[Mystic]

As a Deist,  I tried my best to reason myself into morality. I felt like I could not know a lot of things, being blurry, but even if I felt something was wrong but didn't know it to be wrong, as long as there was no clear indication it was, I was free to do it if I desired so.

MK as a muslim you are not a deist, you are a theist. I'm assuming that you're not living in the middle east after writing that statement, though, because to say something like that in a muslim ruled country is enough to get you killed gruesomely for apostasy.

But it brings a larger point to bear. How are we supposed to accept your beliefs as true when you yourself don't understand them nor can you verbalise them properly?

I meant while I was a Deist. I was a Deist for about five years.