(January 11, 2016 at 12:02 pm)Old Baby Wrote: 2. How long before every trace fear of damnation left you? That's still something that pops in my mind a lot. "What if I'm wrong?"
I know this wasn't directed at me, but I thought I'd give you a heads up. That horrible, nagging feeling that I'd fucked up and was going to pay for it someday, eventually dissipated. IMO, it's simply a parting gift of religious indoctrination; worked in by design.
It took less than a year, for the thought of "What if I' wrong?" to stop disrupting my thoughts from time to time. The notion simply popped up less and less frequently over the passage time, until one day it occurred to me that I hadn't had that feeling in a long while; and I was honestly baffled and a bit embarrassed that I could have ever been bothered over something as ridiculous and clearly made-up in the first place.
