Still struggling.

[Brian37]

I feel your struggle, man. But you have to understand that you can't recondition yourself overnight. It's going to take some time. And skepticism practice. Keep at it, and it will get easier.

Thanks. I'm considering telling my parents I'm atheist and telling them don't bother me about it because i believe what I want nd you believe what you want. But I doubt it will happen the way I hope it will.

Glad you are realistic, life in reality never always happens the way we would want it to go.

I love my mom more than anything. But outside the issue of religion, we had a hard time with each other growing up. She was raised with very authoritarian script thinking, kids are to be seen and not heard, boys don't cry, and "Just do it". Now while sometimes she was right that I was doing wrong, but other times it was simply because she didn't want to explain things to me, and often would take it out on me even when I didn't do anything wrong. 

One day in my late teens, I was sitting on the couch with my feet on a "stool". She came in one day and shouted "What are you doing! Get your feet off of the ottoman!"......Kept repeating it loudly. Finally figured out she meant "foot stool". But even after that she kept ranting for another 20 mins, and that was the moment I knew I had done nothing wrong. Finally drug it out of her that what she was really angry at was some lady she got stuck behind at the check out isle at the grocery store.

Point being my mom was totally unrealistic about me, not that she knew any better, but then again, neither did I. I can deal with her much better now that I am aware of how humans behave.

She is most certainly a much more relaxed person than when I was growing up. Neither of us had a concept of "it is ok to be different". 

No matter how your family might react, it is still up to you how you respond. If you think they will flip out to disowning you, you might want to consider waiting until you have good support in your personal life in case that happens. If you think they might flip out, but still not disown you, then keep telling them you are the same person and still love them, and SHOW THEM by your actions. They may go through their entire lives never understanding, but if you respond with that attitude, they will learn to accept it.

My younger sister was a theist when I met her, but left religion as an adult. Our biological family flipped out at first. They still don't like the fact she does not believe, but they are no longer flipping out over it.