Still struggling.

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Being a teenager you are likely going through the rebellious phase everyone goes through. God is going to do things to make you see the little things, and the dark forces of this world will do everything they can to get you to abandon God. There goal isn't to get you to believe in them, but only to abandon God, because once that happens, they have you. This is spiritual warfare. Remember your human body which you identify with now is just something your true self, your soul resides in for this experience on earth. The body will die, but you, which is a soul, lives forever. 

I'm sure your parents are praying for you as well. I remember reading a story of someone that died and was looking back at the earth, and saw beams of light like lasers coming out of the earth. He asked what that was, and was told by the guide that they are prayers. You are at a crossroads in your life, and you can either trust in what's on this earth through your five senses, or you can trust in your eternal life. Either choice you make, you will see the outcome when your body dies, and then reality is revealed.

Dark forces? Seriously?  Though given your belief in a conspiracies,  out of body experiences etc., nothing should surprise me.----And here I was just sure you were a teen yourself.

Oh yeah, there are dark forces, many of them human, organized crime who exploit people's weakness through drugs and prostitution among others. Organized crime is also an example of a conspiracy by legal definition, which is two or more people plotting a crime. Of course conspiracies exist, and on a much grander scale that people are aware of. Like rich and powerful people don't get together to form plans? There are also dark forces in the spiritual realm, just like there are forces of light. The darker forces are those of Lucifer who defected from God to challenge the authority of God and are currently at war for supremacy of the universe. Without going into a lot of detail which I could, it's kind of the ying and the yang. There are opposing forces at work in our lives beyond our comprehension.

Even going back to being positive vs negative.

I seriously recommend this book to anyone. The point is not so much whether you believe it, but there are people in very high levels that do, and are acting on this belief to affect our lives. Better to understand than to not.

Satan Prince of this world