Still struggling.

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The doubt has returned. I can't shake it. My mom STILL hasn't scheduled my next appointment and I am unable to. I need to get stronger anti-depressants to help me definitely.

The God Delusion is a great read, but I am terrible at focussing on anything. I'll read it, and then have to re-read it over and over again just to remember it. I always get sidetracked and my mom is probably gonna start trying to de-convert me or something of that nature. I have become more skeptical, and whoever that was that recommended the "Demon Haunted World" book, I plan on picking it up.

If you're an atheist, no one can "deconvert" you; that's just dumb.  After all, what can your mom possibly say to you to convince you that god exists, let alone a particular god that you, by happenstance of birth, just happened to be exposed to?

There is only one GOD. It's the same one in all peaceable faiths. Just different names from different cultures. Same thing- the One Creator GOD.

Peace

Faith in selfless Unity for Good.