Mom knows im an atheist. As i said my brother used to be an atheist but he went back to Christianity and I dont want to. This doubt is horrible. I dont want to deal with it anymore. This feels different from HOCD in that its not full blown anxiety attacks.
Im tired of doubting, my parents are only gonna make it worse and if i say "Let me believe what I want" they will think trying to convert me is working and that I will convert with more pushes.
Dont wanna explain that i have a religious form of OCD either because then im fucked and she will try to use my doubt and anxiety to convert me.
She also said no more buying books (still have 5 more coming in).
Im gonna be pestered until i can move out
Im tired of doubting, my parents are only gonna make it worse and if i say "Let me believe what I want" they will think trying to convert me is working and that I will convert with more pushes.
Dont wanna explain that i have a religious form of OCD either because then im fucked and she will try to use my doubt and anxiety to convert me.
She also said no more buying books (still have 5 more coming in).
Im gonna be pestered until i can move out