Still struggling.

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I'm very sorry to hear about your dogs

Sounds like a good plan regarding your brother. I don't know if it would be possible to request you be not home schooled anymore because of the way they are treating you.

It's a loose loose, if I go back to public school then I am constantly in a situation of inescapable anxiety and doubt. I have always been very poorly focused and in an environment like public school I am no better off. With Homeschool, I am able to do it on my own time, and I have my own schedule, so if something happens (anxiety attacks or things of that nature) then I can just take a break, but at the same time I am going to be at odds with my parents 24/7 so they will be triggering doubt and anxiety. (You can see how much I have to shape my life around not getting anxiety just to live even just a little happy.) I'd much rather just eventually get the point across that I won't give in to means of religious conversion, and continue being homeschooled.

And whoever said "Positive OCD to the rescue!" Its a little more like "trying to focus on something 24/7 that doesn't give you anxiety!". I've heard of people who have learned to take advantage of OCD and cope with it to become a better person, but it seems very far fetched that OCD does anything other than harm to the abused.

Hey first of all I want to apologize to you and the forum for being a bully, and obnoxious. Spent some time away to think about my actions, and realize I need to let people be who they are, and not bombard them with my beliefs.

All I want to say, is that your parents have your best interests in mind, at least in their opinion. It took me until my late twenties to realize that my parents loved me more than anyone alive. Blood is thicker than water. Friends come and go, but family is always there for you. There were a lot of things they prevented me from doing, that I resisted. It took time for me to realise that my friends who could do things that I couldn't, didn't always end up as successful as I did. That being said life is about learning, but learning how to be a coke addict for example results in addiction, and not freedom. At the same time, it can be the forbidden fruit. Just keep in mind your parents want the best for you, and they grew up just like we all grew up, and all they want to do is pass on their lessons learned to you in hopes you listen, but honestly most of us don't, and we have to find out the hard way. We all take paths in life, and they lead to where we travel in our experience.