Still struggling.

[maestroanth]

One thing that might help is to stop identifying yourself with the OCD label. Having this label I think on a sub psychological level gives you a sense of "allowance" to continue to be OCD.

For example, I used to be an alcoholic. However, once I changed my drinking habits I simply dropped that alchy label to define myself which A.A. is usually against. The difference is, if I slip up and have drink or two, or Hell, even get wasted on a night, I just don't tell myself "well, I fell off the wagon", and keep drinking on the next night. Rather, I tell myself, "I'm no alcoholic so I better stop now or else I will be one again." To contrast, my A.A.  buddy who keeps that alcoholic label just keep on binging when he slips up  because "well, he's an alcoholic". Labels are dumb man's way to simplify complicated habits and usually gives unsatisfactory results.

I've tried this before with HOCD and Harm OCD. If I were to say "I don't have OCD" then the thoughts say "Well, if you don't have OCD then what causes the thoughts?" and I get anxiety. HOCD and Harm OCD have mostly gone away, but this doubt about religion is here. I get anxiety about becoming a Christians or a Muslim.

Well, I mean everyone has ocd thoughts to an extent. Especially in this modern society where an annoying pretentious level of trivial details seems to be admired. I've had to substitute alcohol with MANY other things and some arguably not even healthy things but still less consequential than booze. So what can you substitute OCD with that'll will make you modestly happier?